aku minta pada Allah setangkai bunga segar,
Allah beri aku kaktus berduri.
aku minta pada Allah binatang mungil yang cantik,
Allah beri aku ulat berbulu.
aku kecewa betapa Allah tidak adil.
kaktus itu berbunga indah bahkan sangat indah
dan ulat itu tumbuh dan berkembang menjadi kupu-kupu yang sangat cantik.
itulah jalan Allah, indah pada waktunya.
Allah tidak memberi apa yang kita harapkan,
tapi memberi apa yang kita perlukan.
kadang kita sedih dan kecewa,
tapi jauh diatas segalanya,
Allah sedang merajut yang terbaik untuk kita.
semoga kita termasuk orang-orang yang pandai bersyukur.
then, i really thank Allah. although i felt many times in broken heart, i know exactly there will be something fascinating, amazing even spectacular. i really don't wanna be person who feel empty, lost the guides from the Almighty, Allah SWT.
for the last many times, i forgot Him and i lost. i felt empty, always thought that there's no place to stand in and to lie my back at. but, i came back to Him, which never bored to hear and accept our prays, every single times. thank Allah for many uncounted times.
also, i felt desperate when the 'suck' ex left me by many fucking reasons. my world seemed really dark and empty, i fell into another guy and that made me feel so wrong until today. but in the another sides i realize, i have my parents, brother, sister and kinda huge number of friends. they're always on my side but my eyes were too blind to see them.
now i feel really grateful of every detail happiness in mine. family and friends are the best place for me to keep everything, i don't think too much about guy and love relationship. i believe, many wonderful moments will come in the right time and place.
Allah never sleeps, He watches, listens and knows everything.
Rabb, shows me Your beautiful way, i don't wanna be the one who leaves you.